"I do believe I have been Changed for the better"

2 years ago I couldn't have told you shit about this war.
2 years ago I would have never guessed I would forever be affected this much.

But I am. I am forever affected by it. We are all affected by it. Whether we like it or not. I think of my friends, of my CW Sisters. Each and every one of us has been affected in one way or another. I feel like every where we turn, someone has died in Iraq or Afghanistan. A sisters friends husband, a sisters husbands unit. Someone we may have known, or cared for.

As I get close to the end of my deployments, I get really happy. But then I see sad news. And I can't help but crying. And I wonder if I will still cry for my friends losses after he is home. I feel forever like I am changed by this. Its not a bad thing to be changed, it could be good. But it scares me to see how far I have come and how close to this war I have gotten in less than two years.

I love my CW sisters to death.

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you


Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

"For Good"- Wicked